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2002-11-30 - 8:50 a.m. |
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It suddenly occurs to me that I will not die. Not just yet. 24 hours ago? I had no such confidence in the living. My state of body is much improved, my friends. I can say nothing about my state of mind. Not just yet, anyway. Here's a hint: watch for the subtext. Here's another hint: I love my friends. Brittania and her friend (now my friend) Justin are here. We are having too much fun. Thursday night, the night of their arrival, is rather lost to me, I'm afraid. I know we tried to play Cranium and I know brother Dan called and that Brittania talked to him for a long time and so did I. I know talking to him when we're both in our cups sounds like a bad idea, but is actually quite fun. I know naught else. I really can't remember. Scott came over, right? Oh! Except Frances, called up to say "we're having fun over here. Are you having fun over there?" I love Frances, baby I do. Yesterday was a series of naps strung together by brief bouts of rather unacceptable wakefulness. I did not have coffee until 6 pm. If you are ever near me at all, do not let this happen. Get the coffee in me as soon as you possibly can. We went to the grocery store because Justin was determined to make stuffing with cranberries and walnuts. While we were at the grocery store we decided to make a whole Thanksgiving meal. I feel it's important to point out that none of us cook. We bought the stuff and came home and cut potatoes and pooled our scant cooking knowledge and listened to Steve Earle and drank red wine and it was lovely. Justin gave us each a book. He gave me The Book of Disquiet by Fernando Pessoa because he heard that I am often melancholy. I opened the book and here is an excerpt from the first page: I'm writing to you today out of sentimental necessity--I have an anguished, painful need to speak with you. It's easy to see that I have nothing to tell you. Just this: that I find myself today at the bottom of a bottomless depression. The absurdity of the sentence speaks for me. If I were a better writer, this could be a page ripped from this very diary, no? Today: croquet, crochet, Solaris, and bowling. I could still sleep for about 8 more hours, but the sun is out, baby, and I am ready to be up. Brittania and Justin are still sleeping. I am chewing vitamin C after vitamin C because I have been sneezing for about 24 hours straight and have no desire to wander down the path of illness. I may just take Bash to the lake right now. Yes. I'm gone. |
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