I have to leave for a job interview in about five minutes. For a job I probably can't take if they offer it to me since it would only just cover childcare and then nothing else. For a job that is not even 1/2 what I was making a year ago. For a job that would mean the kids have to be back in full-time daycare. But damned if I don't what the job.

What am I doing? I am so confused about my life. Everything is so middling; I am unsure about it all.

And now I'm off.