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2004-01-29 - 4:39 p.m. |
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Ayiiii. I'm no good at this! I wrote to J-bird and sfitz and Blythe and said I wouldn't be joining in the reunion fun times. I didn't give any reason--I just said I couldn't come. I don't want to be all pedantic or dramatic or rejecting or stupid. Then sfitz wrote back this: WHAAA!!! Booked through 2004 eh? Uh, I am too. I'm going to be hanging out with Brad Pitt. Which I take to mean, he's cool with it. J-bird writes this:
Which I take to mean, he ain't so cool with it. So I write him back and tell him I love him, but I just can't do that anymore because it's not so much fun for me. Then Blythe writes back that she doesn't understand (and I already told her how I can't do this) and Jay writes me back again to tell me he feels terrible and sad and doesn't want me hate him and Shawn writes that I owe them all an explanation and now it's such a thing which I don't want it to be at all because I can't stand it. What am I supposed to say? How does a person extricate herself from such things? These are people I care about a lot. I don't want to be hurtful and I don't want to try to change anybody or judge anyone but I just can't do it anymore. Ah well. I also feel like I'm over reacting and that I should just suck it up and go to the damned reunion because it's not like I care that much. But give in on the little things, let people run you over just a little bit, and I'm all lost. Fuck it. It's time to go home. Retirement party is done. And look! I see many many many emails from dearest Bathsheba in my inbox! Pictures of the babe! I love the babe! |
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